Monday, July 16, 2018

Sometimes life gets in the way of itself.

It has been a long time since I even signed in to check on my blog.  I have missed it so much.  I don't know if I will ever get "caught up," but oh well.  I will just have to pick up and go.

This past year has just been crazy.  With my kids, Matilda Jane, Junior Auxiliary, building a house, etc. etc. etc., I felt like I barely had time to breathe.  I really did feel like I was drowning for the most part of the past year.  I like to be busy and have responsibilities, but I took on extremely too much. It was gradual.  I didn't say yes to a million things all in the same day.  I just kept adding, and kept adding, and kept adding, and before I knew it... it was TOO MUCH.

Sometimes life gets in the way of itself.  Ben and I decided it was time to take a few steps back, reevaluate, and get our priorities in order.  I felt like I was never able to be fully present with my kids, and my mind was always in 347183612 different places.  I was ready for that to change.  I came across this quote a couple of years ago, and it has stuck with me.  So many things were keeping me from paying attention.

Our house is finally finished, which was a project of massive proportions. We are moved in (for the most part), and are all adjusting to a new normal. That in itself was a lot of pressure taken off of our entire family.  The decisions were hard.  The process was hard.  Our family and our marriage was strained.  Our time was completely taken up.  Our lives were STRESSED.  I am so so so thankful that it's over.  I am not at all complaining, and I am SO thankful for our house, but it was a very stressful process.  More on that later.

It was time to quit teaching Sunday School.  I have loved being with Austin's class the past 2 years, but it was time to let it go.

After much thought and prayer, I quit my job as a Trunk Keeper with Matilda Jane.  It was very bittersweet for me, but I felt good about the decision to let it go.  I can't even describe the relief I have felt the past couple of weeks!  One of the best parts was cleaning up my phone and computer.  I deleted TONS of files and photos.  Sometimes it feels good to DELETE.

The last decision was that I am going to help Ben with his office work.  He already works long hours, then would have to stay up really really late to get paperwork done.  That's something I can now do quickly during the day, and free up some of his family time.

We are all excited about our new chapters!

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