Sunday, May 2, 2010

from the archives

i wrote this post back in february, when ben and i went to washington d.c.  i've had baby #2 on the brain lately.  not because i want baby #2 right now, but because i still don't think i'm ready to go there yet!  makes my goosies (armpits) get sweaty thinking about it.  ha!  but anyway, i found this draft and thought i should post it!  i don't know why i haven't posted it before.
i find myself laying in bed tonight, without an ounce of sleepiness in my body.

for some reason, since mckmama has been thinking about baby girl names, so have i. i spend times like these (the non-sleepy night times) going over baby names and name combinations that i like. and now that i typed that, it kinda sounds a little crazy. what on earth am i doing even thinking about baby names? maybe it's because i looooove finding pretty names that i rate high enough to qualify for my 'baby name' note on my blackberry. ain't it just fun thinking about? without thinking about a baby to go along with it? ok, maybe sometimes the baby thought crosses my mind. =) and no, i am definitely not ready to cross that bridge.

but while i'm on the subject, let me just say that i always thought that i wanted my children close in age. by that i mean 1.5 to 2 years apart. i think that's ideal. austin would have a sibling to play with, talk to, share secrets with, borrow clothes from, etc. but at the same time, i don't want to miss a second of enjoying the child that i already have. maybe we should wait a little longer. who knows... remind me again why i waste time thinking about this? for goodness sake... why can't i just take life as it comes instead of always having a plan??

ohhhhh, plans... how they always fail. life has definitely not gone according to plan up until this point. so what makes me think that the rest of it will?  that's another post for another day.

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